Wednesday, June 3, 2009

I've Started Feeling Old

I've started feeling old lately...

I think sometimes you can get caught up in how 'cool' a younger person is that you forget how old you actually are.

On one hand, I see teenagers and cringe. On the other hand, I see people in their early 20's and think "Man, that's when we had it all, freedom, no mortage, cheap car, a few bills to pay, no money and yet somehow we figured out how to make it work and have money left over for some pizza and beer."

On another hand, I look at kids in their early 20's and think "I am so glad I'm not living paycheck to paycheck, jumping from boyfriend to boyfriend, trying to figure out who I am, what I want, what and who I should be when I 'grow up'."

We have a few friends/aquaintences who are in their early 20's and I see how others tend to flock to them. Who wouldn't? They're young, hip, cool, down with the sickness and whatnot. For some reason, I just can't handle being around them for more than a 'hi, how are you?'.

I am not sure why I have a hard time around people who are younger than me. There are a few, like my friend Amanda, who I forget is younger because I swear, she's so much more mature than I am. And I'm sure there are a few people who are going to be awesome people, when they get over the 'Let's Party!' and that annoyingly immature 'I'm about as deep as a puddle' stage.

I'm sure I'm missing out on getting to know someone who might very well be awesome and fun, but there's that part of my brain that says 'Been there, done that, bought the t-shirt' and puts the kibash on it.

I've started feeling old lately and maybe this is part of growing up. What do you think?

2 comments:

calicobebop said...

Yeah, I understand that feeling. Though, on my part, I think it's mostly due to the fact that those days are over for me and it makes me kind of sad.

I have a few friends who still want to hang out with the 20 crowd - I guess it makes them feel younger. But, that's not for me. Time to move on, I guess.

Evil Stick Man said...

Nostalgia has been kicking me pretty hard in the rear recently. Couple that with a deep-seated wanderlust and I end up at my wits end most days. In other words, I can totally identify :)