Saturday, May 16, 2009

I've had this urge lately to reconnect with my family. Its strange. I have this deep-seeded desire to share the same space as my flesh and blood.

I've thought about extending an olive branch to a family member I haven't spoken to in quite some time.

There are more cons than pros. And I'm not quite sure if the pros are worth it.

There's only one way to find out, right?

What do you think?

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Mother's Day - Updated

Mothers Day is always a day in which I wake up wondering how the day will pan out. Some years it's the easiest thing, just another day. Most years, I want to crawl into bed and wake up when its over.

This year started out just like any year. I woke up, sent a silent wish to my mom for a Happy Mothers Day and got out of bed. About 1/2 way to the kitchen, I turned around and when straight back to bed.

About an hour and a half later, 20 minutes before we were to meet with Greg's parents and Grandmother for breakfast, I made my second attempt at getting up.

Back in bed after feeding the cats, I woke Greg up and told him he needed to get in the shower. Still in bed, I took a deep breath, cleared my mind and headed for the closet. I threw on the first shirt I could find, the jeans I wore yesterday and grabbed my black heels.

We made it through breakfast okay, but once we walked in the door to our house, the tears came. The grief sneaks in without a sound. Suddenly I'm gripped with the loss of my mother. The knowledge that no matter how many amazing women I'm celebrating today, the one who brought me into this world, the one whom with I share a strong bond, will not be physically here to celebrate the day that was made for us.

We have spent the day with Greg's parents and what started out as an anxiety riddled morning, has evolved into a numb, yet manageable day. This evening we have a softball game and then a dinner party with Greg's grandma. I had a wonderful phone conversation with my grandma and that may have been the saving grace of my day.

I wish all the mothers out there a wonderful day. And if you can read blogs from heaven, Happy Mothers Day Mom.

Sunday, May 3, 2009

3 Random Things You Didn't Know About Me

1. I once woke up in the middle of surgery. I was 6 and was getting my tonsils and adenoids taken out and tubes put in my ear. Ever since then, I'm terrified of being put under.

2. I LOVE sloppy Joe's. I could eat them every day of the year. When Greg's out of town, I'll make them and eat them all week. I only eat them over cheap buns with ruffles potato chips.

3. I wanted to be Jewish. A friend once told me that Jewish people got to put candles in all of their windows at the holidays and I wanted to do it too. Somehow I justified that I should convert to Judaism so that I could put candles in the windows of the house I had in my head.

Have you ever woken up during surgery? Tell me about it!
Do you love or hate sloppy Joe's? Want to share?
Are you Jewish? If so, can we hang out? :)